That therapy session did me no good, and

Death subsumes me 

I am grief 

My body, empty 

I am wracked 

I fold and unfold along a line that stretches 

from spine to breath to scream 

You are where?

Where are you 

I live in a breath a breath a breath 

Inside out I turn 

I wish I could I would bring this body 

This body spent 

Erupt my heart ripped 

Pitch me from this height I will fall 

When I hit earth let this self dissolve let me  let me let me

let me be  

sea foam 

burst breath 

crushed leaves 

riptide, I am

Drowned downed no sound 

Blown open broke

wrecked wracked black

      cracked crushed beat back 

wept wind swept lack 

I dissolve        in death by choice

I choose to lose to be loose to lessen 

and

slacken and crest and wane

Long gone

you are gone 

you you you 

you are Gone 

And I 

I would 

I would be   I

I would be sundown with you 

I would See what darkness your eyes behold

Hold your hand

Be held I would be for you I would be 

wherever you may be and if you are not I would not but I am and there is no Darkness so dark as

this this this 

you are gone 

Gone. 

Dark. 

You. 

You.

Gone. 

Dark. But I am. You are not. Dark. I am. I am. 

I 

am